I arrived back home from my 10 day Hawaiian painting experience not quite 5 days ago and boy has life demanded my attention! So many thought streams have run through my head. So many awareness's of my human condition. My reflections on being human change constantly like a navigational pathway or some global positioning system trying to make sense of both where I’ve been and where I am heading.
This morning I heard my inner whispers say “We are a people in crisis!” There is a movement, a shift occurring around the world and our reference points are changing, our language is evolving and our practices between people, cultures, our lands, our oceans and our ether seem to be in a state of metamorphosis. I recognize that I am feeling simultaneously disconnected and deeply connected. So many area’s of my life feel like they struggle to belong into a conventional pigeon hole of typical western society. Other area’s of my life have just gotten on with it and gone with the flow and found themselves belonging secretly… not wanting to announce it to the world for fear of losing it or being judged for setting up camp in a practice or culture that clearly my ancestral linage cannot be traced on any timeline that I have been given permission to access. I am craving a culture that greets our people first and foremost with compassion.
So many of us are waking up to our connection to the land, the spirit of joy and the wonder of the universe. As we do, we struggle to see how our current practices of being human support our new found sense of awe. Suddenly we are reassessing how we spend our time, our money, our resources, our energy etc. I’ve heard my inner whisper many times suggest the pathway of a recluse! Just find a shack and paint, paint and paint some more! Stare up at the clouds and drink in the wonders of natures presence via the stars, the oceans, the birds, the lightening and the rainbows! Surely that is a life worth living! But how do I integrate my role as a mother, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a friend and a contributing member of society into that? In fact on a bigger scale how do we as a people survive this crisis of waking up? Sometimes I feel the overwhelming pain of this crisis and it softens me to a space where I feel like I am carrying the pain of a sobbing universe. Other times I recognize that it is all just in the moment…. and this too shall pass! Each moment we have a choice, we always have choices. Do we meet the moment with compassion and recognition that what ever it is we are feeling… be it joy, sorrow, frustration, pain, we are in fact immersed in the engagement of life!
We are a people that need to remember how to be with our feelings, our beingness… rather than quickly critique them and either instantly run in the other direction because of the discomfort or flip our smart phones out and record the joy so we can O.D. ourselves with it later or fill our social media pages with our stories of living greatly. We are desperate to live a life that matters! What I am becoming more and more aware of is how we measure this! There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans! We are not to be reduced down to a dollar figure in any bank or wallet. We are not to be reduced down to the career we practice at any given time! I will state that again… There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans! We are not to be reduced down to a count of stuff we have or haven’t collected, or land/houses we think we own! Neither is it in the loss of any of these things that we can be dumped into any category of unworthiness! I shall repeat… There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans!
We are a people in the midst of a healing crisis! We are a bloody mess… clotting from the damage of borders, segregation, otherness, greed, fear and the practices of comparison! We have been conditioned to seek outside of us for the answers, for the powers to know… what is… and to heal! Surely, I must take a pill or figure out what Google search term I need and I’ll be back on track! Our governments, our systems, organizations, societies, families: well meaning or not have weakened our connection to our inner wisdom. This is the source of our crisis!
Our heart source has taken a beating but there is life…. this is our healing crisis! The disconnect is our GPS warning and our signal strength to our inner wisdom is slowly hooking us back in! We find ourselves resonating with cultural practices that may have no obvious ancestral connection and that is OK! You do not need permission to resonate with culture or practice. We are resonating with our source of inner wisdom, the one that recognizes the value of being in awe and wonder of ones natural surroundings and recognizing the beauty and wonder in our fellow humans! We are recognizing ourselves in the other! We are glimpsing reflections of ourselves as our true nature and wanting more access! We are being in gratitude for the body that serves us, every lump and bump on these bodies of ours maps our uniqueness! I recognize that I am enough! As I am! I acknowledge that I am not the woman I was yesterday, nor will I be the same woman tomorrow! I am in constant flow of all that is, running through me like the universal life force. The spark of life is carried within my totality of being… unable to be contained in any one form or measured by any one gauge! The less I separate myself from any other, the more I feel whole! I am the land! I am the sea! I am the tree that dances in the wind! I am the cloud that transforms from fluffy mass to rain! I am the man who seeks shelter from the cold night air! I am the woman who stands with her feet in the dirt drinking in the force of nature through every cell of her being! I am every twinkling star and rainbow that ever was and ever will be! So please don’t tell me that I can be measured or limited by any association to any one group of numbers, colours, labels or location! My potential and my beingness in the here and the now is more than can be recorded in any photo, timeline, written word or piece of art. My totality of beingness can however be felt as I invest myself in being present and connected with all that I am in any given moment and the next and the next and the next!
I am that, I am!
"Bliss be you and all those around you!" - Felicity
#ProcessPainting #EnergyPainting #ArtAndHealing #HealingCrisis #iamthatiam #thePaintingExperience #ArtForWellbeing #TheArtofBeing
Footnotes: Process painting or energy painting is a practice of turning up to a blank surface and holding a sacred space of non-judgement, allowing access to an internal source of energy/wisdom to bubble up and be made visible via the paint brush! This process can facilitate the practice of being fully present in body, in energy, in space, in feelings, in beingness, as human, as is! This process has the potential to be transformational in many area’s of ones life!
The Hawaiian retreat Felicity referenced was a course run by The Institute For Art and Living (The Painting Experience with Stewart Cubley) programs are offered United States, Canada and Europe.
Felicity is an Australian expressive arts facilitator with a fine art degree who specializes in the human condition and has a passion for creativity as a tool for wellbeing. She is a co-founder of www.iam-creative-solutions.com who are offering (The Art of Being) retreats and events in Australia using process painting/energy painting framework for individuals and organizations.
Hello beautiful people!
It is with honour that I AM able to present my latest work. ‘I am that, I am! 2-112’.
I feel I have done what I need to do for her to be at the end of the painting process. I AM constantly curious, amazed and in awe at how these works are birthing through the painting process. Painting for me is a process that kind of mashes up a lot of practices that I have been adding to the mix over quite a few years. If I were to sum the practice up I would be using words such as: meditative, mindful, honouring, allowing, permission, compassion, courage. My painting process has become a practice that is deeply aligned with my BEINGNESS of allowing all that I AM to come through without judgement. It is so healing and freeing for me... they have served me like magic carpet rides delivering me to fantastical spaces of wholeness and expansiveness and bliss! Over the past few months I have been discovering that the process of honoring the circles and any other marks that want to be created has itself tapped into a sacred energy that radiates through the works becoming an offering for people who allow themselves to really experience BEING with the work. It is truly something to be experienced and I AM still a little lost for words that would describe it in a way that would give it justice! These works hold an energy that truly is special.... I AM absolutely honoured to be a part of their birthing process!
"Bliss be you and all those around you!"
Happy New Year! I am stepping into all that I am this year... and occasionally that may mean I will share with you a message that comes through my journaling process. Please don't critique me on my grammar this is an automatic writing technique and so it often appears as a mix of 1st, 2nd & 3rd person! If the message resonates with you then it is meant for you, if not let it go!
Happy New year beautiful! I hereby declare 2015 the year of the mindful manifestor.
This is the year to step into the reality of our true nature and our full power. We have been slowly collecting the tools, methods, habits and techniques that align with our creative expression of being… and this year is the year where it is up to us to step into all that is! I am the alchemist! Now is the time to be mindfully focused on what it is we are pulling in! Now is the time to live it as if what you are pulling in has already happened. This is trust! There is no room for doubt and fear it will cloud your path of clarity. This is the year to live it AS IF everything of your true nature is at the surface, ready and accessible. This is the year to know your power of manifesting and use it mindfully. Its time to release the old questions of self doubt and worthiness…. you now dwell in the knowingness of your beingness….. and you know that is enough! Nobody has the power to take that off you, but you must be mindful to check in on your inner compass before you find yourself off path and vulnerable to the heaviness of unguided wondering. Refocus with stillness, trust that you know your best methods to refocus and be playful! You do not need to know your path…. you need to trust in your ability to get there and recognise the sign posts. Now is the time to know your awesomeness!
You have always had the power to manifest, you have been producing outcomes since you were born. Now that you have learned new techniques and have allowed for new notions of possibilities to enter your reality…. your world, your reality, your beingness is in a state of expansion and so are your personal powers of manifesting. Be mindful my darling it is powerful! You must remain mindful to keep this force working for you. Your thoughts and emotions are the tools for direction. They act as the GPS for the manifesting force, map your desire location often/daily, know that if you find yourself off course that your only task is to refocus on where your next destination of beingness is… feel it! Do not waist your manifesting powers rehashing the story of why you got lost…. notice that your off course and congratulate yourself for recognising that you have taken the scenic route and move on. Recalculate, refocus and move forward with head held high! Know your awesomeness!
Now is the time for your ‘what if’s’ to become your living ‘as if’. Living as if… that which resonates deeply as your truth, your true nature, even if it’s wilder and more magnificent than you’ve ever given yourself permission to live before…. Now is the time to live AS IF it is NOW! No more waiting to see! Feel it now! What does it feel like….. FEEL IT… that is your manifesting magic! Know your awesomeness!
So beautiful, what does it feel like to…… (place your hopes and wishes here in thought form)! Feel it AS IF it has already manifested! That is mindful manifesting! Show your gratitude to your inner mindful manifestor and all of her supporters. She will work for you regardless of your thanks but with gratitude she will remain tightly focused and outcomes will arrive with speed! Know your awesomeness!
You have the power to change the things you have previously given your power over to others for. Trust that with persistence, practice and tight focused intentions of beingness….. your on it! Know your awesomeness!
Go forth and mindfully manifest your best year yet beautiful… You’re awesome! #iamawesome #iammindful #iammanifestor #2015isawesome #happynewyear #knowyourawesomeness
Since having the privilege to experience a viewing of 'Song of the New Earth' recently I have been reflecting on the lusciousness of being human that often gets overlooked. I understand that each time I am exposed to a new reference for something and it resonates well within me... it can have the power to shift things and I am able to reframe my experience and understanding of things past, present and future. This has the power to change my physiology, my reality. A lot of what was shared in this documentary resonated with me and it crosses over to how I use colour in my artworks. Since my arts practice moved into intuitive painting which is really another word for a deep practice of expressive art, I have learned to let go of outcomes with regards to the painting process and aesthetics. The old me used to show up to the blank canvas with a sense of fear, and I would churn over ideas before finally beginning a painting with a definite plan. I would always have a notion of what image I was trying to achieve. Now the new me, goes to a blank canvas with an unencumbered sense of embracing all the possibilities of a new work, ready to listen within to what colours I am drawn to and what strokes are wanting to be born. I also wait for the work to tell me if it finished. I suppose why this is relevant to the 'Song of the New Earth' documentary is that I believe I am working with energy, Divine energy wanting to be expressed through me! Through vibrations that I am tuning into which are then expressed via the vibrational levels of colours.
I seem to be doing things back to front. Through the practice of intuitive painting, I am finding my paintings are teaching me things after they are completed! It occurred to me after watching this documentary and another little video that turned up on Facebook which showed Sargy Mann, an artist who is now blind that paints and it really got me thinking about the vibrations of colour. We all know that there are proven theories out there about the effects of colour on the moods and even physical effects on people. I have had the sense that art as a tool for wellbeing can be beneficial for more than just for the artist in the process of creation but for the viewers who allow themselves to truly engage with the finished artworks. I truly believe that artworks have the potential to hold and radiate energy. I believe artworks carry two forms of energy, the energy of creation that flows through the artist to the surface and the energy of the colours and possibly forms. Being that I have already identified that my works are a form of prayer and/or meditation.... I see my arts practice as being one and the same with my spiritual and human practice! I simply cannot separate them. BEING an arts practitioner has assisted to unify previously disjointed aspects of my BEINGNESS. I AM now so much more than an arts practitioner and I hesitate to define it for fear of setting limitations for myself. I am believing more and more with absolute joy that the human potential is bigger than most of us can even begin to imagine!
#energyart #colourvibrations #artforwellbeing #iamthatiam #divineenergy #iamvibrations #intuitiveart #energycircles #songofthenewearth
"Bliss be you & all those around you!"
The analyst in me felt compelled to make a chart unpacking how I understand a BEINGness practice in a unified, sacred, oneness kind of way! I see this practice BEING applied at the first level as an individual and then could be reflected as the collective. BEING human is a creative practice that is done well when practiced with compassion. Following your bliss is referring to your calling. Are we moving towards and/or practicing our calling or what brings us to bliss? Of course this practice works well when we include a practice of compassion and creativity. No matter what your calling is I guarantee you BEING creative about how you practice your passion will serve One well. Spiritual/wisdom practice refers to what ever Ones beliefs are, the gathering and application of knowledge in a way that brings One to peace and equanimity. Practicing this creatively and compassionately serves One well. Anyway this is my model of BEINGness as I understand it today & I reserve the right to change my understanding at anytime. Haha! Does this resonate with anyone else? #BEINGness #creativity #oneness #compassion #sacred #followyourbliss
This is a portrait of One.
She is every body, she is no body.
She is portrait and she is landscape.
She is dust and she is the stars.
She is earthly and she is universal.
She is the north, she is the south,
she is east and she is west,
she is below and she is all of the above.
She is the collective, she is unique,
she is cells divided and she is whole.
She is your soul.
She is dark and she is light.
She is the war that is one, without a fight.
She is bliss and she is sorrow.
She is yesterday, today and she is tomorrow.
She is stillness, she is movement,
she is shifting here and there.
She is the water and she is the air.
She is the breeze, the ease and the dis-ease.
She is the cause and the effect.
She is the pollution and the solution.
She is the one you admire and the one you detest.
She is the one to manifest.
She is the hope and the despair,
she is the one that will always care.
She is everything you can imagine and more.
She is rich and she is poor.
She is attached and non attached,
anchored only by ones beliefs.
She is free and she is imprisoned.
She is death and she has risen.
She is the string theory holding her in place.
She is moving through pathways in outer space.
She is destructive and she is creative,
she is full of grace.
She is courageous and she is vulnerable.
She is all that is... and she is tranquil.
She is full and she is empty.
She is awake and she is sleepy.
She is chaos and she is equanimity.
She is the consciousness of one.
She is a miracle.
She is you, she is me, she is us.
She is a he, he is a she, she is neither nor.
existing as all that is.
She is the Divine One.
Through Felicity Kelly-Cruise
© 2015 Felicity Kelly-Cruise
Felicity is an energy artist practicing compassion, loving kindness & creativity, working with & honoring Divine Energy.