Play with my latest painting with video and filters! Oh soooo much fun! This work is truly captivating!
New work in progress! Reminding me to not over complicate things! Sometimes beauty is in the simplicity of things! Trying not to take on too much and learning to let go of that which does not serve me! I am that, I am! ❤️🙏🎨 #iamthatiam #felicitykellycruise #sacredgeometry #floweroflife #energyart #energyartist #painting #art #beauty #simplicity #lettinggo #workinprogress #spirituality #artistinresidence #liftgallery #maleny #glasshousemountains #sunshinecoast
Ok…. I am just going to say it! I am not the person I used to be! Things happen, moment by moment, bit by bit! Eventually we wake up and find that the person we are is not who we used to be. I am that, I am!
About seven years ago I became aware that the lines between my spiritual practice, my creative practice and my human practice had blurred so much that I couldn’t separate them and it bothered me! I felt it made it harder for me to belong to traditional groups practicing these things separately. My spiritual practice was very eclectic as was my creative practice and some people might say, so was my human practice. I used to see this as a weakness and it often left me feeling very alone and misunderstood. Then came 2012 my crisis year, I was was forced to make probably the biggest choice of my life to date, in the depth a health crisis. There was a moment, I remember it… I was being dosed up on highly addictive prescription drugs that were severely compromising my quality of life but without them at the time, I really wasn’t sure my life was worth living! I have never felt so desperate. I remember thinking, ‘If this is it, if this is what my life is going to be…. I’m not sure I want to be around!’ The condition I was suffering was after all nicknamed ‘suicides disease’. It was a moment of crisis… I had to make a choice. I had one foot in hope and the other in absolute fear that this crisis had me. Then I thought, no! I am strong! I can do this! I choose life!
That was the turning point. In that moment when I chose life… I had hooked into an energy! I began following the energy… trusting my intuition like I have never done before! I stepped into my power and I began practicing multiple approaches to wellness, at times I was assisted from specialists that were considered alternative treatment for my condition. Other practices were happening in my unseen world - Faith, Focus, Love, Belief, Affirmations, Intention, Mantra’s, Prayer, Self Compassion, Determination! All unseen powers… between me and my maker.
I began to notice changes! I began to get well. There were no overnight miracles for me… they arrived slowly but arriving non the less! This new energy had opened the door to wellness the trigeminal neuralgia symptoms had dissipated. Just as the door to wellness had opened so it seemed had the new energy arrived in my spiritual and creative practice. An intensity of practice and focus had arrived. I had noticed a significant shift in my collective practice. Painting was almost always accompanied with inner whispers guiding me with ease through process, I followed the energy. At some point my painting process had become a collective process of prayer, meditation, offering, devotion, gratitude, mantra, compassion and intention. I was practicing with ease.
Art as a spiritual practice involves my mind, body & spirit. It demands my holistic presence in a space that dissolves time, borders & boundaries. It returns me with the my sense of being whole and connected as one with all that is... Whatever word you choose... God source, the Divine, the universe, it doesn't really matter what word you choose when I'm there language dissolves into feeling. Felt as whispers of life force to every cell of my beingness! This is the point where I have trouble describing my process as painting because it’s not! To describe my work/s as just paintings does not honour the work. My works have transformed from paintings to a blurred space caught somewhere between being object, process and experience. The work itself has become a collective just as my practices and process had. It is all of the above, object, process and experience.
In November 2014 I exhibited four of my recent works in a group exhibition in Brisbane. For the first time in a long time my work was being shown in a public space. I began to have some people share with me that my work had moved them in some ways. Some, it was just a noticing that they felt happy or motivated to “Get up and live life” as one elderly lady shared with me. But then I had someone experience what she described at the time felt to her like a ‘chakra balancing’ while she stood in front of one of my works. She had experienced my work vibrationally, energetically. This took me by surprise. I will admit that I absolutely had a sense that my works had a healing quality, for me. I was aware that the process of making the works were in itself continuing to work on my holistic health, mind, body and spiritually speaking.
I wasn’t quite sure what to do with this new information about the experience of my work. Over the following months there have been a more than a handful of people that have had what one may call an energetic experience while being with various works. One session had a particular individual engaged with the work energetically and very intensely for about 40 minutes. I have since personally also experienced an energetic resonance with my work that was very intense as has my husband.
I have had to sit with this new phenomena regarding my work for the last few months. It was bigger than I knew what to do with. However I had recently taken a trip to Hawaii to participate in a 10 day retreat/painting experience. Once again to pigeon hole this as a painting retreat does not describe it accurately at all. For me it was a collective experience involving mind, body, spirit, healing, creativity, meditation and so much gratitude much of it done with paint brush in hand. The I who left for Hawaii was not the same I who returned. What I thought I’d gone there for was not what I had returned with. I had thought I had gone there pretty much for self validation for my facilitation ability working with groups. I am a facilitator of various art groups and was intending on expanding my offerings as a facilitator. So I wanted to be the student again in a group to immerse myself in the language, process and experience of painting intuitively. I wanted to come back home and throw myself into the retreat industry offering a rich experience of creativity and opportunity for personal transformations. While I was there I felt I had achieved what I had gone there for. Along with many other beautiful and sometimes mystical experiences. But when I returned…. within days I found myself in crisis. I had experienced several events and conditions soon after my return that seemed to be a little too intense for me to handle straight after such intense experiences in Hawaii. I began to slip into crisis mode. I gave myself the gift of allowing what was trying to bubble up from deep within to rise to the surface.
Before going to Hawaii I had definitely been experiencing conflict between my work as a practice, my work as a product and my work as an experience. This was bubbling back up with an almighty force behind it now that I was back home! This time it was coming up to be released… to be resolved! I really did not know how to reference what my work/practice had become. I had seemed to be going in the direction of separating my work and practice because to try and explain and share it as it is holistically caused me fear and discomfort for being judged as too woowoo and losing friends. The scope for ignorance (from a Buddhist sense of the word) with regards to understanding what it is I do was huge. My work holistically speaking had moved far away from fitting into any neat mainstream idea of art. Maybe it could be perceived as just being art but that would be at the cost of denying my work as an energy practitioner and the works as an energetic experience. For those that have been aware of my practice for sometime they would most likely already know that I have been practicing various forms of loving kindness, compassion, mantra, prayer etc whilst I paint for quite some time now. I have read very widely both during my university days and after covering many areas on art, spirituality, the human condition, various science and philosophical fields, quantum physics, morphic field resonance, various healing modalities that expand over colour, sound, symbols, sacred geometry, vibration, belief systems/thought fields etc and many varieties of spiritual practices that may be considered by some as urban shamanism. Quite frankly am not concerned with labels, I believe the practice of labels can lead to many misunderstandings and divisions that do not allow for expansion. What I do know is that the work and practice I have developed over the years has morphed itself quite naturally and organically into a practice of energy field work using paint, canvas, brushes and the ability to call in and hold a specific vibrational space when working. Different people may reference this in various ways. I am going to refer to it as connecting to the divine, the oneness energy of all that is. I am that, I am!
There is much to be said about the ability to ‘hold a space’ I recognise this when I am working as a facilitator. As a facilitator it is my responsibility to be present and aware of the shifting energy within the room with regards to people, language, movement, information, intention, physical space, noise, temperature and the many, many subtleties of exchange in-between. I hold the space of art making as a spiritual practice and creativity to be a very sacred practice and I am mindful to honour that when I am facilitating and in practice/process myself. I believe that the energy vibrations that can be experienced when one is present with my works is the resonance of the energy field I call in and hold when painting. Some may just notice they feel various emotions rise within when they are present with a work and others that are more sensitive energetically may feel the works vibrational resonance physically in their body and experience an exchange of vibrational energy. I believe that what an individual may experience will most definitely be a unique experience. No two people will have an exact same experience. I am that, I am! Is a process of mirroring and my work will reflect back to you what your true nature is calling for from deep within. This is your inner energy source, connecting to the energy field of the work and calling in what it needs most. I am that, I am! This makes the whole experience almost indescribable in some ways. To attach language to something that expresses itself using an energy field can be quite a terrain to cross and so I understand why some have had trouble describing their experience.
I have been naming my works the same title for the past couple of years now ‘I am that, I am!’ As I have explained to clients that have purchased my works they are titled this way to reference my practice and my process. It is a reference to my practice of oneness through compassion and creativity, with everything that comes before me I do my best to recognise myself in it, our common godly presence, whether it be a beautiful tree in all its blossoming glory or its vulnerable naked branches, a fluffy cloud, a rock star, a stranger in the street, an animal, a twinkling star of the night sky, an angry driver cutting through traffic, a grieving parent, an aged, sick or fragile stranger… I am that, I am! When I whisper those words inwardly to everything that comes before me I remember who I AM! I AM everything, everyone not separate or above or below anything.
I AM also the creator of all that I AM and I use this energy to pull things into my reality. I am that, I am! Is also a fabulous tool for creativity across all practices of being human. If I AM desiring to be more or desiring to change something about my human experience… I whisper those words inwardly like a prayer reminding myself that ‘I am that, I am!’ And I do my best to let go of the attachment to control, timing or perceived notions of that manner in which something may manifest into my reality. I imagine that which I am drawing into my life as magnetic and what ever it is I AM aligning myself with will be drawn to me like a magnetic force.
Most times, I go to a blank canvas with an unencumbered sense of embracing all the possibilities of a new work, ready to listen within to what colours I am drawn to and what strokes are wanting to be born and hold the sacred space of oneness while in process. Other times I have had an awareness of a work/energy that wants to be expressed and I approach the canvas with an inner vision that has arrived through dream or spontaneous imagery and do my best to honour the vision and allow the space for the energy to flow again once I have picked up the brush, all the time whilst holding the space of compassion, kindness, love and oneness.
As I mentioned after coming back from Hawaii I noticed I was feeling in crisis with regards to how to reference and offer my work publicly since I had become aware of it’s true nature. The thought of separating my practice/product/experience was really not sitting well. I allowed the energy of this discomfort to be fully felt and it caused me a lot of distress. This subsequent discomfort allowed for the breaking down of inner blocks and the final letting go of feeling like I had to solve this problem from the same space that it was made. One afternoon within moments of letting go of the notion that I had to figure it all out... with feet in the sand gazing at the setting sun with my love by my side, I received the framework with which I can offer my practice holistically.
To be continued in Part 2!
If you got this far... I thank you!
We are experiencing major shifts in our world at the moment and I am certain we are shifting towards a new experience of being.
"Bliss be you & all those around you!"
#energyartist #resonance #iamthatiam #thefield #healing #energywork #painting #process #compassion #intention #lovingkindness #prayer #mantra #offering #gratitude #flow #dimensions
I arrived back home from my 10 day Hawaiian painting experience not quite 5 days ago and boy has life demanded my attention! So many thought streams have run through my head. So many awareness's of my human condition. My reflections on being human change constantly like a navigational pathway or some global positioning system trying to make sense of both where I’ve been and where I am heading.
This morning I heard my inner whispers say “We are a people in crisis!” There is a movement, a shift occurring around the world and our reference points are changing, our language is evolving and our practices between people, cultures, our lands, our oceans and our ether seem to be in a state of metamorphosis. I recognize that I am feeling simultaneously disconnected and deeply connected. So many area’s of my life feel like they struggle to belong into a conventional pigeon hole of typical western society. Other area’s of my life have just gotten on with it and gone with the flow and found themselves belonging secretly… not wanting to announce it to the world for fear of losing it or being judged for setting up camp in a practice or culture that clearly my ancestral linage cannot be traced on any timeline that I have been given permission to access. I am craving a culture that greets our people first and foremost with compassion.
So many of us are waking up to our connection to the land, the spirit of joy and the wonder of the universe. As we do, we struggle to see how our current practices of being human support our new found sense of awe. Suddenly we are reassessing how we spend our time, our money, our resources, our energy etc. I’ve heard my inner whisper many times suggest the pathway of a recluse! Just find a shack and paint, paint and paint some more! Stare up at the clouds and drink in the wonders of natures presence via the stars, the oceans, the birds, the lightening and the rainbows! Surely that is a life worth living! But how do I integrate my role as a mother, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a friend and a contributing member of society into that? In fact on a bigger scale how do we as a people survive this crisis of waking up? Sometimes I feel the overwhelming pain of this crisis and it softens me to a space where I feel like I am carrying the pain of a sobbing universe. Other times I recognize that it is all just in the moment…. and this too shall pass! Each moment we have a choice, we always have choices. Do we meet the moment with compassion and recognition that what ever it is we are feeling… be it joy, sorrow, frustration, pain, we are in fact immersed in the engagement of life!
We are a people that need to remember how to be with our feelings, our beingness… rather than quickly critique them and either instantly run in the other direction because of the discomfort or flip our smart phones out and record the joy so we can O.D. ourselves with it later or fill our social media pages with our stories of living greatly. We are desperate to live a life that matters! What I am becoming more and more aware of is how we measure this! There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans! We are not to be reduced down to a dollar figure in any bank or wallet. We are not to be reduced down to the career we practice at any given time! I will state that again… There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans! We are not to be reduced down to a count of stuff we have or haven’t collected, or land/houses we think we own! Neither is it in the loss of any of these things that we can be dumped into any category of unworthiness! I shall repeat… There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans!
We are a people in the midst of a healing crisis! We are a bloody mess… clotting from the damage of borders, segregation, otherness, greed, fear and the practices of comparison! We have been conditioned to seek outside of us for the answers, for the powers to know… what is… and to heal! Surely, I must take a pill or figure out what Google search term I need and I’ll be back on track! Our governments, our systems, organizations, societies, families: well meaning or not have weakened our connection to our inner wisdom. This is the source of our crisis!
Our heart source has taken a beating but there is life…. this is our healing crisis! The disconnect is our GPS warning and our signal strength to our inner wisdom is slowly hooking us back in! We find ourselves resonating with cultural practices that may have no obvious ancestral connection and that is OK! You do not need permission to resonate with culture or practice. We are resonating with our source of inner wisdom, the one that recognizes the value of being in awe and wonder of ones natural surroundings and recognizing the beauty and wonder in our fellow humans! We are recognizing ourselves in the other! We are glimpsing reflections of ourselves as our true nature and wanting more access! We are being in gratitude for the body that serves us, every lump and bump on these bodies of ours maps our uniqueness! I recognize that I am enough! As I am! I acknowledge that I am not the woman I was yesterday, nor will I be the same woman tomorrow! I am in constant flow of all that is, running through me like the universal life force. The spark of life is carried within my totality of being… unable to be contained in any one form or measured by any one gauge! The less I separate myself from any other, the more I feel whole! I am the land! I am the sea! I am the tree that dances in the wind! I am the cloud that transforms from fluffy mass to rain! I am the man who seeks shelter from the cold night air! I am the woman who stands with her feet in the dirt drinking in the force of nature through every cell of her being! I am every twinkling star and rainbow that ever was and ever will be! So please don’t tell me that I can be measured or limited by any association to any one group of numbers, colours, labels or location! My potential and my beingness in the here and the now is more than can be recorded in any photo, timeline, written word or piece of art. My totality of beingness can however be felt as I invest myself in being present and connected with all that I am in any given moment and the next and the next and the next!
I am that, I am!
"Bliss be you and all those around you!" - Felicity
#ProcessPainting #EnergyPainting #ArtAndHealing #HealingCrisis #iamthatiam #thePaintingExperience #ArtForWellbeing #TheArtofBeing
Footnotes: Process painting or energy painting is a practice of turning up to a blank surface and holding a sacred space of non-judgement, allowing access to an internal source of energy/wisdom to bubble up and be made visible via the paint brush! This process can facilitate the practice of being fully present in body, in energy, in space, in feelings, in beingness, as human, as is! This process has the potential to be transformational in many area’s of ones life!
The Hawaiian retreat Felicity referenced was a course run by The Institute For Art and Living (The Painting Experience with Stewart Cubley) programs are offered United States, Canada and Europe.
Felicity is an Australian expressive arts facilitator with a fine art degree who specializes in the human condition and has a passion for creativity as a tool for wellbeing. She is a co-founder of www.iam-creative-solutions.com who are offering (The Art of Being) retreats and events in Australia using process painting/energy painting framework for individuals and organizations.
OH my godness! Aaagghhh.... I AM so excited to share some AwEsOmE news! I AM going to Hawaii in March to attend my dream art retreat! Six years ago, I read the book 'Life, Paint & Passion' and it was the first book that I had read about art as a process that was really aligned with why I AM so passionate about my personal arts practice and has been central to how I choose to facilitate the creative process with people who attend my workshops! I AM so very blessed! I shared my dream as a status and a very special person has stepped forward and offered me a creative solution to help get me there! I plan to go forth and absorb as much of the experience as I can so that I can and come home and share my joy in a big fantabuliscious way! Bring it on! #iamblessed #artandhealing #thepaintingexperience #Hawaii #artretreat #paintingforlife #painting
Sunday Bliss in the studio! Headphones on with the sound healings of Tom Kenyon! It's been a while since I've had a full day to romance with the paints! Yummy! Working on two new works at the moment. This one is emerging from an ugly duckling phase... Progress is slow and steady but she is birthing with small bouts of resistance and expanding flow! #iamthatiam #tomkenyon #creativity #energyart #art #artandhealing
Happy New Year! I am stepping into all that I am this year... and occasionally that may mean I will share with you a message that comes through my journaling process. Please don't critique me on my grammar this is an automatic writing technique and so it often appears as a mix of 1st, 2nd & 3rd person! If the message resonates with you then it is meant for you, if not let it go!
Happy New year beautiful! I hereby declare 2015 the year of the mindful manifestor.
This is the year to step into the reality of our true nature and our full power. We have been slowly collecting the tools, methods, habits and techniques that align with our creative expression of being… and this year is the year where it is up to us to step into all that is! I am the alchemist! Now is the time to be mindfully focused on what it is we are pulling in! Now is the time to live it as if what you are pulling in has already happened. This is trust! There is no room for doubt and fear it will cloud your path of clarity. This is the year to live it AS IF everything of your true nature is at the surface, ready and accessible. This is the year to know your power of manifesting and use it mindfully. Its time to release the old questions of self doubt and worthiness…. you now dwell in the knowingness of your beingness….. and you know that is enough! Nobody has the power to take that off you, but you must be mindful to check in on your inner compass before you find yourself off path and vulnerable to the heaviness of unguided wondering. Refocus with stillness, trust that you know your best methods to refocus and be playful! You do not need to know your path…. you need to trust in your ability to get there and recognise the sign posts. Now is the time to know your awesomeness!
You have always had the power to manifest, you have been producing outcomes since you were born. Now that you have learned new techniques and have allowed for new notions of possibilities to enter your reality…. your world, your reality, your beingness is in a state of expansion and so are your personal powers of manifesting. Be mindful my darling it is powerful! You must remain mindful to keep this force working for you. Your thoughts and emotions are the tools for direction. They act as the GPS for the manifesting force, map your desire location often/daily, know that if you find yourself off course that your only task is to refocus on where your next destination of beingness is… feel it! Do not waist your manifesting powers rehashing the story of why you got lost…. notice that your off course and congratulate yourself for recognising that you have taken the scenic route and move on. Recalculate, refocus and move forward with head held high! Know your awesomeness!
Now is the time for your ‘what if’s’ to become your living ‘as if’. Living as if… that which resonates deeply as your truth, your true nature, even if it’s wilder and more magnificent than you’ve ever given yourself permission to live before…. Now is the time to live AS IF it is NOW! No more waiting to see! Feel it now! What does it feel like….. FEEL IT… that is your manifesting magic! Know your awesomeness!
So beautiful, what does it feel like to…… (place your hopes and wishes here in thought form)! Feel it AS IF it has already manifested! That is mindful manifesting! Show your gratitude to your inner mindful manifestor and all of her supporters. She will work for you regardless of your thanks but with gratitude she will remain tightly focused and outcomes will arrive with speed! Know your awesomeness!
You have the power to change the things you have previously given your power over to others for. Trust that with persistence, practice and tight focused intentions of beingness….. your on it! Know your awesomeness!
Go forth and mindfully manifest your best year yet beautiful… You’re awesome! #iamawesome #iammindful #iammanifestor #2015isawesome #happynewyear #knowyourawesomeness
The analyst in me felt compelled to make a chart unpacking how I understand a BEINGness practice in a unified, sacred, oneness kind of way! I see this practice BEING applied at the first level as an individual and then could be reflected as the collective. BEING human is a creative practice that is done well when practiced with compassion. Following your bliss is referring to your calling. Are we moving towards and/or practicing our calling or what brings us to bliss? Of course this practice works well when we include a practice of compassion and creativity. No matter what your calling is I guarantee you BEING creative about how you practice your passion will serve One well. Spiritual/wisdom practice refers to what ever Ones beliefs are, the gathering and application of knowledge in a way that brings One to peace and equanimity. Practicing this creatively and compassionately serves One well. Anyway this is my model of BEINGness as I understand it today & I reserve the right to change my understanding at anytime. Haha! Does this resonate with anyone else? #BEINGness #creativity #oneness #compassion #sacred #followyourbliss
Felicity is an energy artist practicing compassion, loving kindness & creativity, working with & honoring Divine Energy.