I arrived back home from my 10 day Hawaiian painting experience not quite 5 days ago and boy has life demanded my attention! So many thought streams have run through my head. So many awareness's of my human condition. My reflections on being human change constantly like a navigational pathway or some global positioning system trying to make sense of both where I’ve been and where I am heading.
This morning I heard my inner whispers say “We are a people in crisis!” There is a movement, a shift occurring around the world and our reference points are changing, our language is evolving and our practices between people, cultures, our lands, our oceans and our ether seem to be in a state of metamorphosis. I recognize that I am feeling simultaneously disconnected and deeply connected. So many area’s of my life feel like they struggle to belong into a conventional pigeon hole of typical western society. Other area’s of my life have just gotten on with it and gone with the flow and found themselves belonging secretly… not wanting to announce it to the world for fear of losing it or being judged for setting up camp in a practice or culture that clearly my ancestral linage cannot be traced on any timeline that I have been given permission to access. I am craving a culture that greets our people first and foremost with compassion.
So many of us are waking up to our connection to the land, the spirit of joy and the wonder of the universe. As we do, we struggle to see how our current practices of being human support our new found sense of awe. Suddenly we are reassessing how we spend our time, our money, our resources, our energy etc. I’ve heard my inner whisper many times suggest the pathway of a recluse! Just find a shack and paint, paint and paint some more! Stare up at the clouds and drink in the wonders of natures presence via the stars, the oceans, the birds, the lightening and the rainbows! Surely that is a life worth living! But how do I integrate my role as a mother, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a friend and a contributing member of society into that? In fact on a bigger scale how do we as a people survive this crisis of waking up? Sometimes I feel the overwhelming pain of this crisis and it softens me to a space where I feel like I am carrying the pain of a sobbing universe. Other times I recognize that it is all just in the moment…. and this too shall pass! Each moment we have a choice, we always have choices. Do we meet the moment with compassion and recognition that what ever it is we are feeling… be it joy, sorrow, frustration, pain, we are in fact immersed in the engagement of life!
We are a people that need to remember how to be with our feelings, our beingness… rather than quickly critique them and either instantly run in the other direction because of the discomfort or flip our smart phones out and record the joy so we can O.D. ourselves with it later or fill our social media pages with our stories of living greatly. We are desperate to live a life that matters! What I am becoming more and more aware of is how we measure this! There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans! We are not to be reduced down to a dollar figure in any bank or wallet. We are not to be reduced down to the career we practice at any given time! I will state that again… There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans! We are not to be reduced down to a count of stuff we have or haven’t collected, or land/houses we think we own! Neither is it in the loss of any of these things that we can be dumped into any category of unworthiness! I shall repeat… There is no measuring system that is capable of revealing our true awesomeness as humans!
We are a people in the midst of a healing crisis! We are a bloody mess… clotting from the damage of borders, segregation, otherness, greed, fear and the practices of comparison! We have been conditioned to seek outside of us for the answers, for the powers to know… what is… and to heal! Surely, I must take a pill or figure out what Google search term I need and I’ll be back on track! Our governments, our systems, organizations, societies, families: well meaning or not have weakened our connection to our inner wisdom. This is the source of our crisis!
Our heart source has taken a beating but there is life…. this is our healing crisis! The disconnect is our GPS warning and our signal strength to our inner wisdom is slowly hooking us back in! We find ourselves resonating with cultural practices that may have no obvious ancestral connection and that is OK! You do not need permission to resonate with culture or practice. We are resonating with our source of inner wisdom, the one that recognizes the value of being in awe and wonder of ones natural surroundings and recognizing the beauty and wonder in our fellow humans! We are recognizing ourselves in the other! We are glimpsing reflections of ourselves as our true nature and wanting more access! We are being in gratitude for the body that serves us, every lump and bump on these bodies of ours maps our uniqueness! I recognize that I am enough! As I am! I acknowledge that I am not the woman I was yesterday, nor will I be the same woman tomorrow! I am in constant flow of all that is, running through me like the universal life force. The spark of life is carried within my totality of being… unable to be contained in any one form or measured by any one gauge! The less I separate myself from any other, the more I feel whole! I am the land! I am the sea! I am the tree that dances in the wind! I am the cloud that transforms from fluffy mass to rain! I am the man who seeks shelter from the cold night air! I am the woman who stands with her feet in the dirt drinking in the force of nature through every cell of her being! I am every twinkling star and rainbow that ever was and ever will be! So please don’t tell me that I can be measured or limited by any association to any one group of numbers, colours, labels or location! My potential and my beingness in the here and the now is more than can be recorded in any photo, timeline, written word or piece of art. My totality of beingness can however be felt as I invest myself in being present and connected with all that I am in any given moment and the next and the next and the next!
I am that, I am!
"Bliss be you and all those around you!" - Felicity
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Footnotes: Process painting or energy painting is a practice of turning up to a blank surface and holding a sacred space of non-judgement, allowing access to an internal source of energy/wisdom to bubble up and be made visible via the paint brush! This process can facilitate the practice of being fully present in body, in energy, in space, in feelings, in beingness, as human, as is! This process has the potential to be transformational in many area’s of ones life!
The Hawaiian retreat Felicity referenced was a course run by The Institute For Art and Living (The Painting Experience with Stewart Cubley) programs are offered United States, Canada and Europe.
Felicity is an Australian expressive arts facilitator with a fine art degree who specializes in the human condition and has a passion for creativity as a tool for wellbeing. She is a co-founder of www.iam-creative-solutions.com who are offering (The Art of Being) retreats and events in Australia using process painting/energy painting framework for individuals and organizations.
Felicity is an energy artist practicing compassion, loving kindness & creativity, working with & honoring Divine Energy.